The Soul That Chose To Stay

Healing is remembering. This is a love letter to your soul — to return to yourself, to why you came, and to where home truly is.

A true story of healing through darkness, light, and the art of remembering how to return to yourself.
and the quiet decision to choose
life — again and again.

People are silently suffering:

Millions battle depression, anxiety, and spiritual disconnection every day.

Many don’t know how to begin healing or where to turn when traditional systems fail.

They feel invisible, unworthy, or disconnected from meaning.

Your pain doesn’t mean you’re broken — it means you’re being called home.

About the Book

The Soul That Chose to Stay is a raw and poetic memoir that traces Rubi’s journey through emotional collapse, suicidal ideation, generational trauma, and spiritual awakening.

This book explores what happens after the breaking point.

It speaks to the silent moments no one sees — the internal battles, the inherited pain, the motherhood that became her anchor and saved her, and the awakening that followed survival.

It is about choosing to remain when leaving felt easier.
Choosing to stay for her children.
Choosing to stay for healing.
Choosing to stay long enough to remember who she truly was.

This is not a romanticized story of pain.
It is an honest map through it.

Who This Book Is For

This book is for you if:

You have survived something you rarely speak about
You are healing from childhood trauma
You are breaking generational patterns
You have experienced spiritual awakening after emotional collapse
You have experienced suicidal thoughts and quietly chose to remain
You are a sensitive soul who feels deeply in a world that overwhelms you
You are navigating motherhood while rebuilding yourself
You have ever asked yourself, "Why am I still here?"

This book speaks especially to women rebuilding their identity — but anyone who has survived their own darkness will recognize themselves in these pages.

Each book is a map, a story, and a tool.
Written from my own healing journey, they are designed to accompany you on your path back to yourself.

Excerpt

What You'll Discover Inside

This memoir bridges psychological healing and spiritual awakening.

Begin your own healing journey step by step, even if you feel lost
Re-wire your brain & nervous system using the Affirmation Tool Kit
The quiet strength of motherhood as a path to healing
Reconnecting with the inner child
Increase your self-love & self-esteem
with gentle, practical exercises, prompts for your healing in each chapter

What emotional collapse feels like from the inside
The spiritual dimension of choosing life
Breaking generational trauma and ancestral patterns
Build a true sense of identity and self-worth
Start your own constellation healing proccess

For the soul who chose to stay, this book is a MAP BACK HOME.

Most people are given one lifetime. I was given two. I was send back — Kicked back, really — into this body with no manual, no map, only a promise that I was not done yet.

What feels supernatural, what others might call a miracle, became my second chance.

This reflection is here to remind you: Even if your journey looks different, your soul also chose to remain. And because of that, you are still here — breathing, growing, remembering.

Rubi

— EXCERPT FROM THE BOOK

F.A.Q.

1. Is this book a self-help guide or a memoir?

It’s both. It’s a lived journey told through story and spirit — blending real experiences, spiritual insights, and practical tools to help you heal from within.

2. Do I need to be spiritual to connect with it?

Not at all. This is for anyone who’s ever felt lost, lonely, or tired of pretending to be okay. You’ll find simple truths about self-love and emotional healing that transcend religion or belief.

3. What age or audience is this book for?

For dreamers, seekers, and survivors of all ages — especially those ready to turn pain into purpose.

4. What inspired the title?

It came from my near-death experience — and the moment I chose life again.

5. What can readers expect to feel?

Seen. Heard. Empowered. And deeply loved

Author's Note

I wrote this book because I survived something I once thought would end me.

Many of us didn´t grow up with tools for emotional safety, expression, or love. We grew up adapting, pleasing, hinding, surviving. And it worked — until one day, it didn´t.

This is not a rulebook. This is a soul-letter. It´s a collection of the little things that helped me heal a lifetime of pain. Shared for you… so you can start somewhere, with something, today.

Healing did not come to me all at once. It was not one medicine, one teacher, or one revelation that changed everything — It was a series of SMALL, almost ordinary steps.

These steps may look simple, but they were the ones that carried me back to myself. There are not a formula, but an invitation. If they worked for me, they also work for you, in your own way, at your own pace.

— Nan Rubi

Themes Explored

What Readers Are Saying

Thank you for your reviews : )

“The Soul That Chose to Stay” is not a fictional story. It is a lived experience, written with honesty, vulnerability, and courage. Starting from one of life's hardest questions, “Why would I live another day?”, Rubi invites readers into a journey of healing, self-discovery, and transformation. Through her own experiences, she explores the layers of conditioning, family dynamics, and emotional pain that can keep us disconnected from our authentic selves. What makes this book unique is that it does not promise quick fixes or perfect answers. Instead, it offers a map. Through the many tools, practices, and insights Rubi gathered over more than a decade, readers are invited to find their own path forward, one step at a time. I love this book because it does not hand me a “silver bullet.” It offers something more valuable: a compass, a perspective, and the reminder that healing is possible. Wherever I am on my journey, this book helps me take the next step. With love,

Manon

What struck me most is that this book doesn’t try to impress. It doesn’t posture as healed. It doesn’t preach strength. It feels like someone sitting beside you and quietly saying: “I almost didn’t make it either.” There’s no performance in it. Just a steady truth that survival is not always dramatic… sometimes it’s a slow decision made again and again. What stayed with me is the tenderness toward the younger self who didn’t know how to live yet… and the mother who stayed anyway. It feels less like a memoir and more like witnessing someone choose life in real time. And that lands.

Luke B.

The Soul That Chose to Stay, Rubi inspiring debut book is a deeply personal journey of self-discovery, healing and spiritual awakening. Through heartfelt storytelling and beautifully crafted prose, Rubi invites us to discover the profound wisdom that emerges when we quiet the external chaos and come back to the still guiding voice within. More than just a memoir, this book includes thoughtful self-reflective exercises designed to help readers unearth and shed limiting beliefs forged from unresolved childhood pain and grief. Her experience shines as a powerful testament to the healing that occurs when we release the old stories encouraging us to embrace the grace, gratitude, and profound wisdom that lies within each of our souls. The Soul That Chose to Stay reminds us that we were never lost. Instead, it offers a beautiful awakening to the truth that we can reclaim our life and purpose by embracing our authentic journey back home to the heart. A must-read for anyone seeking clarity, healing, and a deeper connection to themselves, this book is a beacon of light for all who are ready to step full into their own power and soul’s calling.

Sabrina Sanchez

Life Coach/Wanderlust

I know mi amiga Rubi since a long time ago, I thought I knew her, but reading this book and her story, I just tell myself... she really has transformed her life and what she shared with me over the years, have helped me so much. she has written a great roadmap for anyone navigating the underground work of healing. The Soul That Chose to Stay is a masterclass in transmuting generational trauma into personal sovereignty. I enjoy the way she shares, she´s did it as the Sherlock Holmes detective, she´s fun...and the heart of a mystic, Rubi shows us that our most broken moments are actually the doorway to our most authentic selves. This book doesn't jus t tell you that healing is possible—it gives you the actual tools to find your way back home." Con Cariño

Luis L.

Soul Friend

"Rarely does a book capture the raw, unvarnished truth of the human spirit’s resilience like this one. The Soul That Chose to Stay is a breathtaking testament to the power of choosing life, even when the darkness feels absolute. Rubio’s journey from learned helplessness to becoming her own mama lighthouse is a visceral reminder that we are never as broken as we feel. It is a soulful, essential read for every seeker who has ever felt "too much" or "not enough."

Luis S.

"A profound exploration of the Root Wound and the sacred art of remembering who we are. Nan offers a vibrational shift in book form—weaving together ancestral wisdom, creative medicine, and practical affirmations to help us break the patterns that no longer serve us. If you are ready to stop surviving and start staying for the life you were meant to live, this is your guide." Key Themes I noticed while reading: • The "Root Wound": Your description of inherited grief and the "weather" of a survival-based childhood is incredibly relatable for many readers. • Creative Medicine: I love how you integrate painting, digital sharing (TikTok), and writing as literal tools for survival. • The Power of Choice: The central hook—choosing to stay when you almost didn't—is a powerful "hero's journey" that will deeply resonate. • Practicality: The "Toolbox" sections and "Trigger-Specific Affirmations" elevate this from a simple story to a functional workbook.

Susy

If you have ever stood at the edge of your own breaking point…
If you have ever survived something no one applauded
If you are still here and wondering why…

This book was written for you.

Choose to stay.

Choose to remember.

Choose to come home.

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Now and then, receive gentle reminders, and updates on Rubi’s healing work. & some humor too 🤓… Join souls on the journey home.

The Soul That Chose To Stay

Healing is remembering. This is a love letter to your soul — to return to yourself, to why you came, and to where home truly is.

About the Book